Chuck Palahniuk (via samantha-maria)
(Source: jorrty)
I know this.. because tyler knows this
“ What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction. ”
“ Mom, listen, I haven’t been together with Topanga for 22 years, but we have been together for 16. That’s a lot longer than most couples have been together. I mean, when we were born, you told me that we used to take walks in our strollers together around the block. When we were two, we were best friends. I mean, I knew everything about this girl. I knew her favorite color, her favorite food. Then we became six, Eric made fun of me because it wasn’t cool to have a best friend that was a girl or even know a girl. So for the next seven years I threw dirt at her. I like to call those “the lost years”. Then when I was thirteen, mom, she put me up against my locker and she kissed me. I mean, she gave me my first kiss. She taught me how to dance. She always was talking about these crazy things and I never understood a word she said. All I understood was that she was the girl I sat up every night thinking about, and when I’m with her, I feel happy to be alive. Like I can do anything. Even talk to you like this. So that’s, that’s what I think is love, mom. When I’m better because she’s here. ”
Corey Matthews (Boy Meets World)
“ Me? I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of what I saw, I’m scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I’m with you. ”
Dirty Dancing <3
Like Crazy
Last night I decided to go see the new movie, Like Crazy. I’ve been having the worst few days and I really needed to just cry. You know, you need to cry so you stop feeling numb. I felt as if I was just in such a blur the last couple days, I needed to get some emotion out.
Seeing how this movie was a Indie film, it was only showing at the Royal Oak Main Art Theatre. So, I paid a co-worker to close for me, got out at 9pm, the show started at 9:30pm and I was on my way. I got to the theatre and it was every bit of a small town theatre that you could imagine. I mean, box office out front, small concession stand, no one to check tickets, and a small sitting area to discuss the movie afterwards. So I made my way to theatre 3 and there it was in front of me, the movie that was about to sum up everything I have been feeling within the past 48 hours..
In the movie, Anna was a girl from the U.K and her boyfriend, Jacob, was from Santa Monica. I mean, sure there was never anyone from another country that was involved but there were real, true feelings. As they spent more and more time apart, they started seeing other people, they just couldn’t work it out with the distance but their feelings never died. One long night and a couple drunk phone calls later, they were reunited. They were inseperable. Then, everything changed. The time they spent apart made them into different people. They were no longer a part of each others lives, they were simply just together for the sake of the memories they once shared. They ended up breaking up once more, going back to the people they were with previously, and then, as Anna got the chance to go back to the U.S, she went and lived with Jacob. They didn’t have the spark they once had. Even though they had a past, they couldn’t continue living in the memories. They had to move on.
At the end of it, I was upset with the ending because it just stopped. It just simply went to the title and that was it. Fin. But I know their story because I am living it. I have a Jacob in my life. I also have a Simon (the person who truly made Anna happy). My Jacob and I have a past. But as time went on, I realized I couldn’t be content with just living with what once was. I still converse with him from time to time but he will never make me feel the way my Simon does. The tricky thing here, Simon doesn’t understand this. I mean how could he. I’m asking him to understand something that sometimes I don’t even understand. How could you spend so long with someone, but yet at the end of the day, care SO much about someone else. Well, I guess I do understand it now, I experienced that so I could be grateful for the love that comes from my Simon. Hopefully it’s not too late now. I would give the world just to have him know that I am grateful for every moment we have spent together and I hope we can continue. Even though it won’t be easy and I would have a lot to prove, I would do everything I possibly could to make it known how happy he has made me every single day.
I’ll admit that I haven’t always been the best when it comes to expressing my feelings, I have never been the first to say exactly how I feel. I keep myself closed off, I keep things to myself. I am learning the hard way that that is a terrible trait. A fatal flaw if you will. It pushes the ones who I am closest to away. I need to work on this, and from here on out, I will.
I’ve always been told that you can love someone so much but you can never love them as much as you can miss them.. I’ve never felt that a single statement has held more truth than right now. </3 please come back, I’m begging you.
Here’s a toast. To the good days, the better friends. The ones that you just can’t live without. The people that have taught you how to party. How to live. How to have a good time just sitting around. Here are to the people that no matter how bad things seem, are going to be there for you. To lean back on and catch you if you fall.
